Lucie Duff Gordon
To Mrs. Ross, CAIRO, December 1, 1863.
Dearest Janet,
I should much like to go with Thayer if his
times and seasons will suit mine; but I cannot wait indefinitely, still less come down
the river before the end of April. But most likely the Pasha will give him
a boat. It is getting cold here and I feel my throat sore to-day. I went to see Hassan yesterday, he is much better, but very weak
and pale. It is such a nice family—old father, mother, and sister, all well-bred and
pleasing like Hassan himself. He almost
shrieked at hearing of your fall, and is most anxious to see you when you come here.
Zeyneb, after behaving very well for three
weeks, has turned quietly sullen and displays great religious intolerance. It would seem
that the Berberi men have put it into her head that we
are inferior beings, and she pretends not to be able to eat because she thinks
everything is pig. Omar’s eating the food does
not convince her. As she evidently does not like us I will offer her to Mrs. Hekekian Bey, and if she does not do there,
in a household of black Mussulman slaves, they must pass her on to a Turkish house. She
is very clever and I am sorry, but to keep a sullen face about me is more than I can
endure, as I have shown her every possible kindness. I think she despises Omar for his affection towards me. How much easier
it is to instil the bad part of religion than the good; it is really a curious
phenomenon in so young a child. She waits capitally at table, and can do most things,
but she won’t move if the fancy takes her except when ordered, and spends her time on
the terrace. One thing is that the life is dull for a child, and I think she will be
happier in a larger, more bustling house. I don’t know whether, after the fearful
example of Mrs. B., I can venture to travel up the Nile with such a séducteur as our
dear Mr. Thayer. What do you think? Will gray
hairs on my side and mutual bad lungs guarantee our international virtue; or will
someone ask the Pater when he means to divorce me? Would it be considered that
Yankeedoodle had ‘stuck a feather in his cap’ by leading a British matron and
grandmother astray?